to those who do in fact miss me...

i really am sorry...

i guess the truth is i fall in to feeling sorry for myself way too easily

below (the post below, untitled) is a little snippet of how i was feeling yesterday...

for the record i will say now (hopefully before you read it) that it isn't always this bad... i do get a little attention sometimes...

but that is not all of what keeps me...

also the lack of wireless, and me missing my usb chord is a little discouraging...

plus the only computer is in the room where adora sleeps, and since nap time and after bed is the only time i ever get to blog usually, i rarely get to any more, unless i'm out, or daring enough to risk waking the little fire ball...

but, in honor of nanny joe, i must say i do have a lot to be thankful for... way to much to keep up too long with this self pity "*@#!" as she would call it...

plus she might never forgive me if i did just up and quit blogging...

so... i promise... i will try to find positive things to write about, and the time to write them, and keep you all posted, as i do love you all, more than you know, and just to hear the responses so far has snapped me back in to reality, and brought tears to my eye, and i feel so loved and stupid all at the same time...

and that part about no comments... please forgive me for that too... i am so caught up in my own little world sometimes, and can sit on my pity pot and pout pout pout till i hate myself and say no wonder nobody likes me, and then when i see that people do like me, and did all along, i am embarressed and want to hide all the more...

but i also decided that it shouldn't matter anyway, i am what i am and that's all that i am...

take it or leave it...

thanks for reading...