random thoughts on life and family...
well once again it is time for our house to be highjacked...though i doubt this time will prove to be the burden it was last... i love Ed's mom and grandma, and i'm so glad they're here.. i love moms... and grandmas... i feel really lucky right now... and for adora too... she has 3 grandmas!, just like her daddy did... well she actually has 4, my grandma (noni) who lives in a nursing home in illinois... it's so sad... i wish family was like it was in the old days, where we all lived together, or at least really close by, and we took care of our elderly family... not that i blame anyone in my family for my grandma being in a home... it just kind of happened that way, and was never anyone's intention...
anyway, i love seeing adora with her grandma's... each of them... it's like she can sniff out a softy a mile away... she gets so cute and cuddly, once she realizes there's someone around who's gonna baby her and spoil her rotten... funny thing is, i don't really mind... sometimes i do, when i think about how hard it's gonna be when they leave, but i was so impressed with how quickly she snapped back after my mom left, and i've also been feeling a little more sentimental with not wanting her to grow up too fast, and realizing that she really is still a baby herself, as nanny joe reminds me, and i'm not so intent on ruining the grannies' fun, as i once was... i did go easier on my mom too, though she may not have noticed....
anyway...at the same time, i've been thinking a lot about how to raise obedient children, my husband and i both, and we are starting to question everything... we worry sometimes that we are too hard on her... that we expect too much from her... she's so smart and she can be so good, but sometimes so... never devious, but.. i don't know... obnoxious i guess... sensitive really... she tends to cry too often, and gets her feelings hurt so easily...it's hard to say if it's a conscious thing or not...
we were reading "to train up a child" and felt it was a great way to go about it...but lately, no just hasn't been enough... and i hate spanking her... but she does seem to respond well to it... just i hate doing it over and over for the same things...
it's strange though...how a kid will naturally obey their father over their mother... i've seen it a dozen times... i was always wondering if it was something the mother did wrong, and now that it's me, and i'm already so insecure, i'm afraid she'll never listen to me... i've heard it's a normal phase all children go through... but for some reason that's not very encouraging... i'm not sure why...
anyway... life is good... she really is a good girl, and i'm amazed by her everyday... and chloe is just incredible... a bit of a piggy, but wonderful all the same...
my biggest challenge right now, is with the realization that true peace is not dependent on circumstances... too often i let the trials of my daily life wear me down, and fail to notice the warm embrace of God waiting for me in a welcome gesture, till i'm weeping and broken on the floor... ahh well.. we grow, we learn, we gain a little bit of perspective everyday, our sight coming clearer with each new victory...or failure...
as the earth turns toward the sun, may my heart be in a perpetual yearning and striving after the heart of my Savior
anyway, i love seeing adora with her grandma's... each of them... it's like she can sniff out a softy a mile away... she gets so cute and cuddly, once she realizes there's someone around who's gonna baby her and spoil her rotten... funny thing is, i don't really mind... sometimes i do, when i think about how hard it's gonna be when they leave, but i was so impressed with how quickly she snapped back after my mom left, and i've also been feeling a little more sentimental with not wanting her to grow up too fast, and realizing that she really is still a baby herself, as nanny joe reminds me, and i'm not so intent on ruining the grannies' fun, as i once was... i did go easier on my mom too, though she may not have noticed....
anyway...at the same time, i've been thinking a lot about how to raise obedient children, my husband and i both, and we are starting to question everything... we worry sometimes that we are too hard on her... that we expect too much from her... she's so smart and she can be so good, but sometimes so... never devious, but.. i don't know... obnoxious i guess... sensitive really... she tends to cry too often, and gets her feelings hurt so easily...it's hard to say if it's a conscious thing or not...
we were reading "to train up a child" and felt it was a great way to go about it...but lately, no just hasn't been enough... and i hate spanking her... but she does seem to respond well to it... just i hate doing it over and over for the same things...
it's strange though...how a kid will naturally obey their father over their mother... i've seen it a dozen times... i was always wondering if it was something the mother did wrong, and now that it's me, and i'm already so insecure, i'm afraid she'll never listen to me... i've heard it's a normal phase all children go through... but for some reason that's not very encouraging... i'm not sure why...
anyway... life is good... she really is a good girl, and i'm amazed by her everyday... and chloe is just incredible... a bit of a piggy, but wonderful all the same...
my biggest challenge right now, is with the realization that true peace is not dependent on circumstances... too often i let the trials of my daily life wear me down, and fail to notice the warm embrace of God waiting for me in a welcome gesture, till i'm weeping and broken on the floor... ahh well.. we grow, we learn, we gain a little bit of perspective everyday, our sight coming clearer with each new victory...or failure...
as the earth turns toward the sun, may my heart be in a perpetual yearning and striving after the heart of my Savior
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