I'm In Tahoe!!
Yup, that's right-Tahoe... South lake Tahoe actually...and at a ski resort nonetheless...
This may seem a little crazy, being so soon after having a baby, but I assure you, it is just the thing to do!!!
and no I'm not skiing...
My parents used to have time-shares, they had to give them up recently, but they still had a week left over, and since my brother and my dad wanted to come see the baby, and since we live in a pretty tiny house, and since it's snowboarding season -bonus for brother and husband- we figured... why not go to Tahoe?
and I don't think we could've picked a better spot! We got spas, saunas, heated indoor and outdoor pools, free laundry, a full kitchen in our condo style suite, exercise room, activity center, oh... and a whirlpool hot tub in our room... So yeah.. I'd say I'm pretty set up!!!!
And this really is quite the blessing, seeing as I swore to myself I would rest this time around....
When I had Adora I was out like everyday with my family... It's nobody's fault really, I was just so uncomfortable in the house... I lived in a communal flat in San Francisco at the time, with 2 or 3 other families, as well as single people... And though I had nothing at all against any of them really, in fact I loved every one of them dearly, a few of them were even at the birth... I just felt sooo crowded, and, I don't know, uncomfortable, for some reason... call it post-partum weirdness.... anyway.. I remember feeling, once the chain of visiting family was over, that I really missed out on something incredible...like a woman really is supposed to just relax and be with her baby, for as long as she possibly can, before reality sinks back in and you're no longer considered "recovering" and there's nobody around to help you as much as you'll let them any more...
Any way.. it wasn't really all that bad, I just knew that this time I wanted to savor the first while as much as I could and rest rest rest rest rest and can I say it enough? REST!!!!... And relax, and not worry about ANYTHING!!!
I had no idea how hard of a thing this is for me to do till just recently... Even though my well meaning husband has been trying to show me for some time, he often makes things harder for me.. but we're working on that...and it's not all his fault... I definitely play my part too, I must admit, and I really do know that his intention is ALWAYS for my good, and mostly the problem is with me... a) learning to receive, and b) not being such a control freak... (which I totally am by the way....)
Anyway (yes I am aware of the fact that I use this word way too much in case you were wondering, and I don't care or plan on changing any time soon so... anyways) I haven't really been getting that rest that I promised myself lately, so this really is more wonderful than I can say... And I'm really trying very hard to just enjoy it and, one more time I'll say, RELAX!! I keep getting tempted to stress out on all the things I'm neglecting at the house, or that I'll have to do once I get back, or how my mom is leaving me in less than a week now!!!! "pull yourself together Renee" I'll say to myself... "It's just one week, and then it will be gone...never to be enjoyed again...." This is how I have to talk to myself... in bittersweet threats and reminders....
Well the good news...the super good news in fact, is that one of my bestest friends ever is coming soon... just a day after my family leaves... And she'll be staying for 2 whole weeks!!! And I couldn't be more stoked!!! Especially since Ed's mom and grandma weren't gonna be able to come till April, and I was way nervous about 2 whole weeks of nobody... Ok yeah, I have Ed, but he has school, and is trying to get a job, and I have my good friend and neighbor Devon, but she has 2 kids herself... And though I am felling a little less nervous about 2 kids than I was, I am still nervous really.. I don't know why... Call it paranoia... I think the root of it is, when I really look at my life, I feel like I have been so blessed, and I have this crazy suspicion that it will all run out... And I think that's why I'm so pessimistic, cause I try to tell myself it's already bad, it can't get worse, but when I'm honest I see that it's really great, and I'm really lucky, and fate must've overlooked me somehow, cuz I really don't deserve all this....
and I'm sorry if any of that was hard to follow....
but lately I have been really trying to not only count my blessings, but also, to count it all joy when I fall into various trials, a verse I used to think only applied to persecution, but now I believe that all "testing of my faith" counts.... That's another thing... I'm learning... to look at circumstances of my life as testing, rather than some endless chain of curses the heavens are riddling my life with... The syndrome of "they're all out to get me" is getting old I guess...
anyway... Tahoe... Life is good... We even have a FULL size bed in our room (which any one who knows us would say, wow what do you do with such a big bed? (my dad actually asked us this when we got here)...confused?... My husband and I have a twin bed...We've actually slept in one together (through both pregnancies mind you), ever since we've been married!!! Yes I know this is rather strange, and I laugh whenever friends of ours want to stay in our room when we're gone, wondering if they'll make it work or not.. but for us it works.. In fact we prefer it.. we've had the opportunity to get a bigger bed, and yet we always go with the twin... What can I say, we like the closeness... In fact I'm so used to it that when I notice the extra inches on my side of the bed I get scarred I'm hogging it all, or if I don't literally feel ed next to me I jerk awake thinking he's fallen off... fun times...
well my brother comes in tonight... and I'm pretty excited, and I just realized my phone doesn't have service in the lobby, so I'm worried about ed and the girls so I'll end this post now...and maybe update or change later... (ok I did now)
My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations;
Knowing [this], that the trying of your faith worketh patience.
But let patience have [her] perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.
let this be so in me!!!
This may seem a little crazy, being so soon after having a baby, but I assure you, it is just the thing to do!!!
and no I'm not skiing...
My parents used to have time-shares, they had to give them up recently, but they still had a week left over, and since my brother and my dad wanted to come see the baby, and since we live in a pretty tiny house, and since it's snowboarding season -bonus for brother and husband- we figured... why not go to Tahoe?
and I don't think we could've picked a better spot! We got spas, saunas, heated indoor and outdoor pools, free laundry, a full kitchen in our condo style suite, exercise room, activity center, oh... and a whirlpool hot tub in our room... So yeah.. I'd say I'm pretty set up!!!!
And this really is quite the blessing, seeing as I swore to myself I would rest this time around....
When I had Adora I was out like everyday with my family... It's nobody's fault really, I was just so uncomfortable in the house... I lived in a communal flat in San Francisco at the time, with 2 or 3 other families, as well as single people... And though I had nothing at all against any of them really, in fact I loved every one of them dearly, a few of them were even at the birth... I just felt sooo crowded, and, I don't know, uncomfortable, for some reason... call it post-partum weirdness.... anyway.. I remember feeling, once the chain of visiting family was over, that I really missed out on something incredible...like a woman really is supposed to just relax and be with her baby, for as long as she possibly can, before reality sinks back in and you're no longer considered "recovering" and there's nobody around to help you as much as you'll let them any more...
Any way.. it wasn't really all that bad, I just knew that this time I wanted to savor the first while as much as I could and rest rest rest rest rest and can I say it enough? REST!!!!... And relax, and not worry about ANYTHING!!!
I had no idea how hard of a thing this is for me to do till just recently... Even though my well meaning husband has been trying to show me for some time, he often makes things harder for me.. but we're working on that...and it's not all his fault... I definitely play my part too, I must admit, and I really do know that his intention is ALWAYS for my good, and mostly the problem is with me... a) learning to receive, and b) not being such a control freak... (which I totally am by the way....)
Anyway (yes I am aware of the fact that I use this word way too much in case you were wondering, and I don't care or plan on changing any time soon so... anyways) I haven't really been getting that rest that I promised myself lately, so this really is more wonderful than I can say... And I'm really trying very hard to just enjoy it and, one more time I'll say, RELAX!! I keep getting tempted to stress out on all the things I'm neglecting at the house, or that I'll have to do once I get back, or how my mom is leaving me in less than a week now!!!! "pull yourself together Renee" I'll say to myself... "It's just one week, and then it will be gone...never to be enjoyed again...." This is how I have to talk to myself... in bittersweet threats and reminders....
Well the good news...the super good news in fact, is that one of my bestest friends ever is coming soon... just a day after my family leaves... And she'll be staying for 2 whole weeks!!! And I couldn't be more stoked!!! Especially since Ed's mom and grandma weren't gonna be able to come till April, and I was way nervous about 2 whole weeks of nobody... Ok yeah, I have Ed, but he has school, and is trying to get a job, and I have my good friend and neighbor Devon, but she has 2 kids herself... And though I am felling a little less nervous about 2 kids than I was, I am still nervous really.. I don't know why... Call it paranoia... I think the root of it is, when I really look at my life, I feel like I have been so blessed, and I have this crazy suspicion that it will all run out... And I think that's why I'm so pessimistic, cause I try to tell myself it's already bad, it can't get worse, but when I'm honest I see that it's really great, and I'm really lucky, and fate must've overlooked me somehow, cuz I really don't deserve all this....
and I'm sorry if any of that was hard to follow....
but lately I have been really trying to not only count my blessings, but also, to count it all joy when I fall into various trials, a verse I used to think only applied to persecution, but now I believe that all "testing of my faith" counts.... That's another thing... I'm learning... to look at circumstances of my life as testing, rather than some endless chain of curses the heavens are riddling my life with... The syndrome of "they're all out to get me" is getting old I guess...
anyway... Tahoe... Life is good... We even have a FULL size bed in our room (which any one who knows us would say, wow what do you do with such a big bed? (my dad actually asked us this when we got here)...confused?... My husband and I have a twin bed...We've actually slept in one together (through both pregnancies mind you), ever since we've been married!!! Yes I know this is rather strange, and I laugh whenever friends of ours want to stay in our room when we're gone, wondering if they'll make it work or not.. but for us it works.. In fact we prefer it.. we've had the opportunity to get a bigger bed, and yet we always go with the twin... What can I say, we like the closeness... In fact I'm so used to it that when I notice the extra inches on my side of the bed I get scarred I'm hogging it all, or if I don't literally feel ed next to me I jerk awake thinking he's fallen off... fun times...
well my brother comes in tonight... and I'm pretty excited, and I just realized my phone doesn't have service in the lobby, so I'm worried about ed and the girls so I'll end this post now...and maybe update or change later... (ok I did now)
My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations;
Knowing [this], that the trying of your faith worketh patience.
But let patience have [her] perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.
let this be so in me!!!
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