warning... i jump through a few topics on this post...and yes there are photos
well, all talk and no play, makes for one fat nay nay...
just kidding...
seriously though, i do need to get off my but a little more...
but i just have to report that i am really starting to get the hang of the no sugar thing... like i don't even want it really...
i have my coffee with just cream... maybe a little too much cream, but hey, one step at a time, -still no sugar and that's amazing-, and i love it...
before i had started to like the "plain" cereal, i had bought some cereal that i knew would taste sweet, but said it only had like 6 grams of sugar, which i figured was a big enough step, but my husband ended up telling todd that i didn't want it because it was too sweet, and todd ate it all... at first i was a little bummed because i was really looking forward to it being the one thing that i enjoyed... but now i am seeing that, for me at least, having even the one little sweet thing keeps me craving it all day long... and it really is true, now that i have cut it out almost** completely i really appreciate the natural flavor of things... it reminds me of when i first bcame a raw foodist years ago and 'discovered' plain avacado, not made into guacamole, not on a bagel or in a salad, just plain, and it became my new love, that is how a lot of foods i'm eating now are becoming... and that is motivating me and it feels good...my mom was right...
**i only say 'almost' cuz i don't plan on giving it up for life or anything just until i:
a) see real results,
b) am no longer dependant on it,
c) crave it way less,
and
d) know my limits and am happy with keeping them
i still gotta work on the excersize thing though so i am taking my friend's and mom's advice and starting simple and keeping it fun...
first i have to clean my house though, so that when my husband gets back from redding it's not to a tornado disaster again like last week... in my defense i will say that he surprized me by coming home in the morning, with no warning call or anything...
but excuses aside, i really feel this is a major thing that i need to improve on... for him mainly i guess, but for me too... it really does feel good to have a clean house... and for ed it's not just the not coming home to a mess, it's also the not coming home to a stressed out wife who is mean, crabby, tired and a terrible housekeeper... with the focus more on me being stressed out.. which worries him and stresses him out...
he doesn't like to think of me all day long as being stuck in a messy house with crazy hyper kids and no breaks and no energy and unhappy... to him, when he comes home and sees that the house is picked up, he knows that it means i had a good day, and found time to do things, and he knows i am happier... which makes him happier...
i feel like i allow myself too many breaks, maybe i do need them, but i could be picking up or organizing, and conditioning myself to feel like i'm taking a break while i clean, and then, when i do sit down and look around, i actually enjoy it, rather than feel guilty for sitting down when i should clean...
so, all that to say, this is why i've been blogging a little less often.. not that i really expect anyone to have noticed, except for my mother who goes through withdrawls when i take too long to post new pictures of her babies (who can blame her?)... (don't worry mom, you're my biggest fan and i love it...)...
it dawned on me one day that i really do have more time than i give myself credit for... i mean, it takes time to write my bla bla bla's and upload a bunch of pictures... but also i should say, blogging at all in the first place has really been extremely healing for me... i feel like i've been pent up for a long time... and writing is a huge release, and every comment from a friend is so uplifting and has even helped me become a little less anti-social... except for when there's people over and i'm on the computer... LAME!!!
but... gosh, do i ramble or what?
on another note,
this week i miss ed more than i ever have any of the times we've been apart...
i'm glad that he's working, but i just miss him...maybe because last week i told myself i wasn't gonna miss him, and was glad he was going, and then when he came back we fought a lot, and this time we had barely made up before he left again, and my bed is now the loneliest place on earth...
last night i attempted to ease some of this loneliness, and brought adora in to bed with me, she's apparently been missing her daddy a lot too, seeing as she would wake up screaming every half hour, and when i'd go check on her she'd point to the door and cry asking for da da? da da? wey da da?... i finally had to call the infamous love of our lives and have him talk to her on the phone and pray with her like we do every night, and only then did she finally sleep...
i still think the daddy's girl bit is really sweet...
i'm rather fond of my daddy too, who, when he calls and asks how his baby is doing, he is asking about me, and that to me is the most wonderful thing in the world...
one of the first times that i talked to him after adora's birth he had asked, 'how's my baby?', and i said, 'who adora?' with maybe a hint of jealousy/posessiveness, but he responded with 'no you, you're my baby, you'll always be my baby' and he might not know this, but that honestly made me cry....
i love you daddy....
ok ok i'll do pictures for every theme,
me and the hubby
gramma's get their fix-
it's been hard so far to get a pic of the two munchkins together, shrimp can't keep her hands or lips off jumbo shrimp, so please bear with me and i will keep trying to get some good ones...
xoxoxoxo
just kidding...
seriously though, i do need to get off my but a little more...
but i just have to report that i am really starting to get the hang of the no sugar thing... like i don't even want it really...
i have my coffee with just cream... maybe a little too much cream, but hey, one step at a time, -still no sugar and that's amazing-, and i love it...
before i had started to like the "plain" cereal, i had bought some cereal that i knew would taste sweet, but said it only had like 6 grams of sugar, which i figured was a big enough step, but my husband ended up telling todd that i didn't want it because it was too sweet, and todd ate it all... at first i was a little bummed because i was really looking forward to it being the one thing that i enjoyed... but now i am seeing that, for me at least, having even the one little sweet thing keeps me craving it all day long... and it really is true, now that i have cut it out almost** completely i really appreciate the natural flavor of things... it reminds me of when i first bcame a raw foodist years ago and 'discovered' plain avacado, not made into guacamole, not on a bagel or in a salad, just plain, and it became my new love, that is how a lot of foods i'm eating now are becoming... and that is motivating me and it feels good...my mom was right...
**i only say 'almost' cuz i don't plan on giving it up for life or anything just until i:
a) see real results,
b) am no longer dependant on it,
c) crave it way less,
and
d) know my limits and am happy with keeping them
i still gotta work on the excersize thing though so i am taking my friend's and mom's advice and starting simple and keeping it fun...
first i have to clean my house though, so that when my husband gets back from redding it's not to a tornado disaster again like last week... in my defense i will say that he surprized me by coming home in the morning, with no warning call or anything...
but excuses aside, i really feel this is a major thing that i need to improve on... for him mainly i guess, but for me too... it really does feel good to have a clean house... and for ed it's not just the not coming home to a mess, it's also the not coming home to a stressed out wife who is mean, crabby, tired and a terrible housekeeper... with the focus more on me being stressed out.. which worries him and stresses him out...
he doesn't like to think of me all day long as being stuck in a messy house with crazy hyper kids and no breaks and no energy and unhappy... to him, when he comes home and sees that the house is picked up, he knows that it means i had a good day, and found time to do things, and he knows i am happier... which makes him happier...
i feel like i allow myself too many breaks, maybe i do need them, but i could be picking up or organizing, and conditioning myself to feel like i'm taking a break while i clean, and then, when i do sit down and look around, i actually enjoy it, rather than feel guilty for sitting down when i should clean...
so, all that to say, this is why i've been blogging a little less often.. not that i really expect anyone to have noticed, except for my mother who goes through withdrawls when i take too long to post new pictures of her babies (who can blame her?)... (don't worry mom, you're my biggest fan and i love it...)...
it dawned on me one day that i really do have more time than i give myself credit for... i mean, it takes time to write my bla bla bla's and upload a bunch of pictures... but also i should say, blogging at all in the first place has really been extremely healing for me... i feel like i've been pent up for a long time... and writing is a huge release, and every comment from a friend is so uplifting and has even helped me become a little less anti-social... except for when there's people over and i'm on the computer... LAME!!!
but... gosh, do i ramble or what?
on another note,
this week i miss ed more than i ever have any of the times we've been apart...
i'm glad that he's working, but i just miss him...maybe because last week i told myself i wasn't gonna miss him, and was glad he was going, and then when he came back we fought a lot, and this time we had barely made up before he left again, and my bed is now the loneliest place on earth...
last night i attempted to ease some of this loneliness, and brought adora in to bed with me, she's apparently been missing her daddy a lot too, seeing as she would wake up screaming every half hour, and when i'd go check on her she'd point to the door and cry asking for da da? da da? wey da da?... i finally had to call the infamous love of our lives and have him talk to her on the phone and pray with her like we do every night, and only then did she finally sleep...
i still think the daddy's girl bit is really sweet...
i'm rather fond of my daddy too, who, when he calls and asks how his baby is doing, he is asking about me, and that to me is the most wonderful thing in the world...
one of the first times that i talked to him after adora's birth he had asked, 'how's my baby?', and i said, 'who adora?' with maybe a hint of jealousy/posessiveness, but he responded with 'no you, you're my baby, you'll always be my baby' and he might not know this, but that honestly made me cry....
i love you daddy....
ok ok i'll do pictures for every theme,
me and the hubby
gramma's get their fix-
it's been hard so far to get a pic of the two munchkins together, shrimp can't keep her hands or lips off jumbo shrimp, so please bear with me and i will keep trying to get some good ones...
xoxoxoxo
posted by 1weirdgirl at 12:17 AM
4 Comments:
Great job sweetie!!! Your writing is a great release and I know it does help you. When I show people at work the pictures, they are impressed with your writing. Try a children's story. I know you have a great imagination. We had another midwestern storm last night and I always think of you out dancing in the rain. I should have guessed that Eddie was gone and that's why you were feeling down in the dumps. Nice try on the pictures........but I've already seen these. Love them anyhow.
That's the cutest picture of you and Eddie together that I've ever seen. You're so beautiful.
Renee you're such a good trooper! This week you have been so strong and never once did i hear a complaint about needing help with your kids or say anything like what comes out of my mouth daily. If you ask me you've been a prime example of motherhood and wifedom. You are becoming more dear to me everyday and i look forward to tomorrow.
Dear Renee (which "e" do you put the accent over?),
I admire your spirit and fortitude. I know I'd have such a hard time if John was gone all week long. I hope sometime soon he can be working a little closer to home.
I can totally relate about taking breaks and falling behind on housework. Since coming back from England I decided to try doing "to do" lists and it's crazy how well it works for me. I don't just put work stuff on there, but stuff like "Read Aria story" and "Relax (nap or read)". I guess I do well with the list thing. It makes everything seem more doable and I don't feel like I have to do everything in one day.
Beautiful Pictures! Adora looks so cute standing with her legs spread out. And what beautiful thoughts on your dad.
Love, Rachel
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