confession...
I'm starting to reconsider my whole dieting agenda... not the actual dieting, just the way of going about it... i feel like i'm doing it all wrong... i'm really discoraged... i feel like maybe my "quitting sugar" bit was just my way of getting out of excersizing, the nessescary element to losing wieght...i thought cutting out sweets was enough... i've heard of people just quitting soda and losing a bunch of weight... i don't know if this will cut it for me...
well truthfully, i may just simply be addicted to sugar, and am now experiencing the withdrawl stage... i'm deppressed, unmotivated, unable to concentrate, tired, slow, irritable...
renee suggested that if i just push through, once my body gets over it's dependancy, i'll start to feel better, and that may be all the encouragement i need... but i know, even with that, i do still need to excersize... why is it so hard?... i feel stuck in a chain effect... my lack of energy demotivates me to exert myself, and my lack of exerting myself is making me more tired...
one thing is the kick devon is on.. maybe if i can catch her wind i'll be allright.. but the timing thing just isn't working for me... i don't know if i can ever achieve such rigid schedling... i feel like all my shortcomings are piling up against me... i'm a terrible house keeper, i can't cook without making a huge mess, i hate to clean, i can't even go in my kitchen when it's trashed, everytime i do laundry, it ends up all over my house in piles that never find their drawers, and just end up back in the hamper again...and all i want to do is eat a bowl of ice cream and forget about it...
well... on a positive note... i have made it through a whole week without indulgence.. i say indulgence, because there is still sugar in my cereal... but a lot less than what i'm used to...so much so, that today, a bowl of plain corn flakes mixed with trader joes high fiber cereal, actually tasted good... that is an amazing leap of accomplishment if you ask me... i think i might start drinking coffee too, with just half and half, no sugar.. i think i'll almost enjoy it... and i might have the energy to clean the kitchen, which will encourage me to eat in a timely manner... that is my biggest hold up... timeliness.. today was the third day in a row that we had dinner past 9 o'clock... that just sucks.. sure i stay up late... but i don't want to keep on that way... i want to not eat past 6 or 7, and be in bed by 10 or 11...
oh if wishes were fishes, we'd all cast nets....
i think i can do it... i'm just feeling sorry for myself...
i made a new rule, that for every 10 lbs i lose i can treat myself to frozen yogurt...
my friend todd thinks that's a little harsh, and i should shoot for every 2 or 3 lbs... i said that at that rate i'd be dieting till i'm sixty...
anyway.. the point of all the babbling on this post was to say, i'm sensing the need to take the next dreaded step into a real weight loss plan.... the physical one.... no pain no gain eh?
well truthfully, i may just simply be addicted to sugar, and am now experiencing the withdrawl stage... i'm deppressed, unmotivated, unable to concentrate, tired, slow, irritable...
renee suggested that if i just push through, once my body gets over it's dependancy, i'll start to feel better, and that may be all the encouragement i need... but i know, even with that, i do still need to excersize... why is it so hard?... i feel stuck in a chain effect... my lack of energy demotivates me to exert myself, and my lack of exerting myself is making me more tired...
one thing is the kick devon is on.. maybe if i can catch her wind i'll be allright.. but the timing thing just isn't working for me... i don't know if i can ever achieve such rigid schedling... i feel like all my shortcomings are piling up against me... i'm a terrible house keeper, i can't cook without making a huge mess, i hate to clean, i can't even go in my kitchen when it's trashed, everytime i do laundry, it ends up all over my house in piles that never find their drawers, and just end up back in the hamper again...and all i want to do is eat a bowl of ice cream and forget about it...
well... on a positive note... i have made it through a whole week without indulgence.. i say indulgence, because there is still sugar in my cereal... but a lot less than what i'm used to...so much so, that today, a bowl of plain corn flakes mixed with trader joes high fiber cereal, actually tasted good... that is an amazing leap of accomplishment if you ask me... i think i might start drinking coffee too, with just half and half, no sugar.. i think i'll almost enjoy it... and i might have the energy to clean the kitchen, which will encourage me to eat in a timely manner... that is my biggest hold up... timeliness.. today was the third day in a row that we had dinner past 9 o'clock... that just sucks.. sure i stay up late... but i don't want to keep on that way... i want to not eat past 6 or 7, and be in bed by 10 or 11...
oh if wishes were fishes, we'd all cast nets....
i think i can do it... i'm just feeling sorry for myself...
i made a new rule, that for every 10 lbs i lose i can treat myself to frozen yogurt...
my friend todd thinks that's a little harsh, and i should shoot for every 2 or 3 lbs... i said that at that rate i'd be dieting till i'm sixty...
anyway.. the point of all the babbling on this post was to say, i'm sensing the need to take the next dreaded step into a real weight loss plan.... the physical one.... no pain no gain eh?
posted by 1weirdgirl at 2:29 AM
3 Comments:
Exercise is the key. Eat healthy and smart. Take the kids for a walk. I know you, you love to be outdoors. You're right about the eating late. Target dinner for 5 or 6. There's so much to eat that's not fattening. I think you're bumming yourself out by thinking about what you can't eat. Think about what you can eat and eat when you're hungry not depressed. Go for a walk or play a game when you're down. I love you and share in your sorrow. I lost 6 lbs staying with you and it was because we did keep busy. Fruits and salads are things you love.
yeah, i wish i had a treadmill so i could exercise and watch tv. it sounds soooo wonderful. if you do the coffee with just halfnhalf, you get used to it, and can really taste the flavor of good coffee and it is wonderful...you probably feel like crap to if you've haven't had coffee in a while...i just want to die if i don't have it...i know it sound bad, but i love the taste and the effect...it is my instant mommy motivator...seriously
Renee, you're funny. I totaly understand all of the time delemas you have and also how hard it is to start excercise when you first need the motivation that excercise gives in order to want to excercise. The only thing that helps motivate me with excercise is when I think about it as something fun like a sport that I love, and don't think about it as haveing any thing to do with my weight, just quality of life.
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